Sorry I've been missing in action lately. My six year old computer decided to kick the bucket last month so I had to wait almost three and a half weeks for my new one to arrive. It set me back a pretty penny but it's one of those things that's (sadly) kind of hard to live without nowadays.
In other (more exciting) news, I put in my two weeks notice at work yesterday. While I can't wait to be free of that place and the feelings I associate with it, it almost makes it harder to go in everyday and work until the 24th. I'll be taking the last three days as PTO (making my final exit on the 20th) and laying myself by the pool on my self-declared 'mini-vacation' until I can get back on the schedule at the Rec center. And I know that being by the pool will be much more enjoyable knowing I'm being paid for it.
I'm excited I took this stand for myself. I'm a pretty practical person, and it was hard for me to make this decision without having something equal in terms of benefits and stability. The Rec center can give me almost 40 hours a week for the summer between camps and teaching, but it won't be forever and there's no benefits. But I'll find something. I'll live. And probably with a better quality of life than I've had for the last few months.
Lately I've been feeling really sad (like sad enough that just thinking about work nearly brought me to tears waiting in the doctor's office on Tuesday), and not up to par physically either (no relation to the doctor's visit). But what got me down more than anything was my lack of a spiritual life. Not being able to attend church regularly has been really hard for me, and that is certainly the part of my new schedule I'm looking forward to the most. I'll admit though, I will miss getting off at 4:30 everyday as a guaranteed thing.
Last night was really the first night I've felt like myself in a long time. Bekah and Sandy and I went to the eighth grade graduation of some of the middle schoolers and it was wonderful. There were lots of laughs and witty comments, and I felt like I was speaking up and holding my own in a way that I've missed lately.
I'm excited to see where this goes, and this re-introduction to my freedom is perfectly timed for summer adventures. Cheers to change.