One of the more notable events occured on Tuesday evening, when I met with the nurses at RMH to pack 6.5 totes for approximately 5 hours.
With our 6 team members, we're able to bring a total of 12 totes, each weighing in at 50 pounds a piece. Once we get on the ground in Ethiopia, we'll have over a ton of supplies with us.
I'm holding my heart out but clutching it too - Nickel Creek "Reasons Why"This part of the process affected me more than I thought it would. I've been excited about the trip from day 1, looking forward to experiencing something new, fulfilling a dream I've had for a long time, and learning many new things. But seeing some of the things we're taking, and hear what some of them could be used for, really struck a chord with me. I knew this trip would be hard. There's no denying that. But having talked about it with some of the nurses, it has potential to be a lot harder than I could have thought. Of course, the unknown leaves things open to your imagination, which often translates (for me at least) to thinking of the mroe than worst case senerio.
I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you - John 14:18
It's a bit like the beginning of a new relationship. The honeymoon phase is gone and its almost like I'm done dreaming. Reality is starting to set in and I realize this is going to be hard. Perhaps the hardest thing I've ever done thus far in my life. I will have to physically put myself lower than probably everyone that comes to the clinic, something I've never had to really do before. I'm going to have to work hard and learn hard and pray hard and play hard. And I'm a little scared. What if I discover I can't do it (anything medical) and I hate it (Africa) and I just want to go home? What if I fail? I'm not sure that I really can fail because I know God is preparing and using each of us differently. And I know this is a trip I need to go on. I've known that since March when the idea first started floating around.
I don't know what's going to happen, but I do know my senses are going to be assailed in a way they never have been before. Not to mention my emotions and my spirit. But I also know that my God is a loving God and is holding me through all of the pre-trip emotions and unexpectedness and dependency. And I know he is growing me (I might be feeling some growing pains!) But I'll be walking taller soon, more confident too I'm sure.
The King will reply, 'Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.' - Matthew 25:40